On December 4, 2017, my beloved companion Sandi’s earthly body left us. As the Bible says, it was her tent, and her soul has gone home to Jesus, where she belongs. Sandi’s family had left framed photos of her though out the years for me, which I picked up at the memorial service in her honor at the homeless meal on February 3 in Bristol, PA. I reflected on Sandi as I gazed at the photos.
I took care of Sandi for almost three years, after she was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer which spread to the brain and liver.
In Sandi’s younger years, she was a beautiful woman. Shortly after I met her in December, 2014, her beauty faded and she looked sickly. She was always tired. Her vigor and her good looks were gone, but Sandi was beautiful to me. As the saying goes, beauty’s only skin deep. Oh yea!
Watching her body being eaten up by cancer over the past three years makes me start to realize what’s important in life, just as homelessness does. Sandi was a lady. She had class and morals. Some guy wanted Sandi to go with him, I think when she was homeless before she met me, evidently thinking because she was homeless she was a ready target for a “good time.” Wrong! Not Sandi.
Recently I’ve been getting to know a very lively, cute woman who is searching for answers about God. As was the case with Sandi, I have a heart to help people, especially pretty, skinny women. Seriously though, I sometimes get so caught up in helping people that I forget that I am not responsible for outcomes. That’s God’s job. I reminded myself and a Christian sister reinforced this idea, which I know but tend to forget. I get bummed out and anxious when things don’t go as I thought they should go. I’ve been praying to God that He will handle what I can’t and that I will know my place. God’s ways are not our ways.
There’s a problem when you think someone can bring you what only God can. As Bob Dylan sang: https://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bob-dylan-lyrics/it-ain_t-me-babe-lyrics.html
The best we can do for others is to reflect God. “We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.” 2 Corinthians 5:20
God created us in his image. I try to keep in mind that my purpose is to glorify Him by doing that which pleases Him.
In a sense we are all homeless. This world is not our home; we are just sojourners here. Sandi, who, when asked about her salvation, said “Jesus is in my heart.” She has gone home to Jesus. I will always cherish the memory of the lady who wears the cat hat.